Autumn - The Season of Daydreaming#
A few days ago, I opened my universe and saw this popular blog post titled "Take a Moment to Daydream, Just a Cup of Coffee's Time," and I was pleasantly surprised when I listened to it before going to sleep with my headphones on.
Doing nothing while daydreaming is both meaningless and meaningful. Daydreaming is a way for me to empty my mind. It's nice to do something meaningless. It's tiring to always think about the significance of everything we do.
When I listened to this podcast, I resonated with it both mentally and physically.
I have classes every day, but I don't understand the numerous mathematical formulas the teachers talk about in class. It feels like a waste of time. When I don't have classes or after class, I ride my bike to my workstation and start watching CS courses. Mentally, I feel like I'm three years ahead, preparing for work. I'm not particularly annoyed or happy. I'm calmly preparing for job hunting. I unlock my phone and don't know what to look at, so I turn off the screen. I go to the cafeteria to eat, choose a queue with fewer people, and get takeout due to epidemic prevention and control measures. It's a mundane life. I wish there were some ripples in my days.
It's not necessary for everything to have meaning, and it's not necessary to be 100% positive.
After the first two classes on Thursday, I moved a chair to the balcony, basked in the sun, listened to the podcast, and felt the refreshing autumn atmosphere throughout my body.
In the current rhythm, I hope we can relax normally, daydream appropriately, and enjoy daydreaming. We don't have to wait until retirement to enjoy a leisurely life.
Want to Daydream with Others#
In the podcast mentioned above, it also talked about daydreaming with friends, not deliberately doing anything, just having a dreamy look in our eyes. It feels so wonderful. Sitting on the balcony, feeling the breeze during spring and autumn, doing nothing, is truly meaningful. Similarly, if I daydream with her, it would definitely be beautiful.
During my postgraduate studies, I don't have many social relationships, at least not at the moment. I really want to hear about other people's worlds. Maybe I'll have to find some activities later, otherwise, I'll lose my spirit.
A friend asked me about my thoughts on marriage and having children in the future. After going through a relationship, completing a year of graduate studies, and graduating from undergraduate school, my perspective on the world has changed dramatically. You make me reconsider these questions, and it feels painful. I hope marriage is not simply a material match, and I hope to experience the feeling of 1 + 1 > 2. In reality, you have to consider material foundations, family differences, and more after establishing a clearer relationship. As for having children, it feels difficult to have thoughts about it. The birth of a new life is a sacred thing. We all think about the upbringing and education of our children. They will have their own thoughts and become distinct individuals, but it is also based on certain foundations. When they can truly think, how should they face the confusion brought by the world? Perhaps their parents don't have the answers either, they are just resolved by time. I want to selfishly find answers to my own life first.
I still want to believe that I can meet someone and cultivate an intimate relationship, but it seems like a side quest in life. I also hope that my parents will let me be willful in this matter, just like a child.
Put on Headphones and Stroll the Streets of Autumn#
Recently, I've been enjoying listening to white noise. Playing music at home in the rain, it's especially suitable as white noise when studying. The singing is vague, and you don't need to understand what they're singing about. Just immerse yourself in your own world.
I like listening to the singer Li Jian! I feel that his image and voice are equally clean and comfortable. I also listened to a song shared by Kyo Ami a long time ago, "A Person Who Creates the Most Explosive Sound on Earth!" by Ryuichi Sakamoto, which soothes my body and mind.
Autumn is here. I hope everyone can daydream and fill their lives with seemingly meaningless things! Forget about efficiency and fulfillment...
Have a happy weekend, everyone~