Beautiful Scenes#
The weather in Shanghai in March and April seems to be oscillating between spring and autumn. On Tuesday morning, the wind was quite strong. People could be pushed by the wind. After class, as I rode my bike back to my workstation, there were leaves in the middle of the road, being blown by the wind. But in that moment, the scene I saw was like an animation. A pile of yellow and green leaves looked like a group of little elves running around. It was so magical.
The wind blowing at around ten degrees made people feel very comfortable, as if there was nothing that couldn't be smoothed out.
It rained heavily again that night. I urged my senior brother to leave, but unfortunately we caught the heaviest rain. Walking on the road, looking at the lightning and thunder in the sky, I thought that as long as I saw the lightning and was still alive, I should be fine (laughs).
On April 5th, Qingming Festival, I watched the report while playing games anxiously. It felt like I was back in high school. When I walked out of the dormitory during dinner time, I saw the library in the distance, half bathed in the sunset. It was so beautiful.
Ah, why didn't I take photos of all these moments? Well, maybe I had more expectations at that time, and photos may not be able to convey that feeling.
Right and Wrong#
Recently, I have been particularly fond of listening to songs on Bilibili and YouTube. Tonight, I accidentally came across Shen Yicheng's "Chun" at the 2020 Bilibili Summer Graduation Song Concert. I first heard this song when I was a sophomore, and now I'm listening to it again at this age (cough cough). Graduation, waiting for graduation, what new feelings will I have when I truly say goodbye to this identity?
Yesterday, I received a message from a classmate from my undergraduate days asking, "What have you been busy with lately? How's work?" I replied jokingly, "I just got laid off recently and I'm still looking for a job..." It wasn't until a few sentences later that I found out he is now working at ZTE and wanted to see if I, who used to "study hard," am doing better than him. He asked people he knew how they were doing, even asking me, someone he's not very familiar with. It's a bit awkward...
Soon, I will also enter the sea, or rather, I have already entered the deep sea...
This is a quote I found online, which Luo Xiang often quotes and is from Epicurus: "We step onto a stage that we did not choose, and perform a script that we did not write. Maturity may mean being able to skillfully play various roles in life."
This passage sometimes intermittently inspires me.
Sometimes I acknowledge myself, sometimes I feel discouraged, thinking that I am not good enough, constantly jumping back and forth. When chatting with friends about our lives in graduate school, despite some dissatisfaction, we are still persevering. Everyone says that as long as we are alive, it's enough, but we lie down and struggle and lift our heads with "tears" in our eyes. I really want to applaud for every life like this.
Ramblings#
A Turkish netizen told me that the earthquake had a great impact on their country. Now they are taking online classes while on vacation in other countries. They pray for their country to recover as soon as possible, while also envying those on vacation...
ChatPDF is really useful! Extracting key content and making a simple report is very helpful.
I hope the one-hour presentation next week goes smoothly. After the presentation, I will come back to life! Who hasn't finished making their PowerPoint by the deadline and is calmly typing here...
See you next week.